[He looks away, blushing, clearly embarrassed by the question, although even he's not entirely sure why. After a bit of time passes, he clears his throat and half-heartedly meets Crowley's gaze.]
It didn't seem worth it to bother, if I was never going to use it. The times my body reacted without my permission, I simply stopped making an Effort. I think I was worried that if I let myself climax, I'd only be more aware of what I was missing.
[He gives a small, wry smile.]
I know that doesn't sound like me, denying myself an earthly pleasure. But it wouldn't have been much of a pleasure if it wasn't with you.
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Date: 2020-07-26 07:22 pm (UTC)[He looks away, blushing, clearly embarrassed by the question, although even he's not entirely sure why. After a bit of time passes, he clears his throat and half-heartedly meets Crowley's gaze.]
It didn't seem worth it to bother, if I was never going to use it. The times my body reacted without my permission, I simply stopped making an Effort. I think I was worried that if I let myself climax, I'd only be more aware of what I was missing.
[He gives a small, wry smile.]
I know that doesn't sound like me, denying myself an earthly pleasure. But it wouldn't have been much of a pleasure if it wasn't with you.